So, this is our first post and I must apologize for the delay. God told me to start this blog months ago–about five months ago to be exact. I was supposed to do it about a month after I found out I was pregnant.
I have so many things to share. Where do I start?
I guess I will just start from today. I am 29 weeks (7 months) pregnant and this time around has been rough, to say the least. In the beginning of my pregnancy, I contemplated abortion…yes abortion! Horrible right? I know! But honestly things were so rough I felt hopeless. I was sick mostly all the time, had to change some medications (which was a major issue), and constantly in and out of the hospital.
At first I started with morning sickness. Then I had stroke-like symptoms and bad pelvic pain, which there was no source identified. It was just a lot of stuff to handle on top of REAL life!!! I realized abortion wasn’t an option—I could never go through with that. It was straight up the enemy putting that idea in my head to consider.
Things continue to be rough and that’s why we’ve been MIA. I was actually upset–pissed–and withdrawn for some time. I was angry that I was pregnant and having all these complications. I felt alone and did not want to hear, “it will be over soon,” or “When are you due again,” as if my due date changed because of the pain I felt. I started to resent people for their unknowingly, annoying, borderline offensive comments. Months later I realize that my friends and family meant no harm; they just tried to offer words of encouragement (no I’m not upset with anyone, I’m partly out of my feelings LOL).
Things are now harder than ever, but “I’m coming out, I want the world to know.” Seriously, I think my life as well as Lori’s can be a blessing to others. Well, I’m sure it will, because God is purposeful in His instructions.
I am beyond grateful that God does not just leave us during these seemingly hopeless situations. Although I felt alone, God would constantly remind me that I wasn’t through dreams, friends and His Word. Now let me say, I did not–repeat–DID NOT have the biblical response to these trials, but in Gods mercy and grace I am overcoming and learning so much in the process (which I will post about in due time). If you feel hopeless, trust me, I know the feeling and please know that you are NOT. God is always with his children even in hard times, just like a good parent.
Scriptures That Helped Me
The Lord himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged
This Book of the Law shall not depart from your mouth, but you shall meditate on it day and night, so that you may be careful to do according to all that is written in it. For then you will make your way prosperous, and then you will have good success. 9 Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be frightened, and do not be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.”
1 Peter 5:7
Casting all your anxieties on him, because he cares for you.
Philippians 4:6-8do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. 7 And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.8 Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is commendable, if there is any excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think about these things.
Read the entire chapter of Romans 6. I abbreviated it because the entire chapter is long.
Romans 6: 7-19
For one who has died has been set free from sin. 8 Now if we have died with Christ, we believe that we will also live with him. 9 We know that Christ, being raised from the dead, will never die again; death no longer has dominion over him. 10 For the death he died he died to sin, once for all, but the life he lives he lives to God. 11 So you also must consider yourselves dead to sin and alive to God in Christ Jesus.
12 Let not sin therefore reign in your mortal body, to make you obey its passions. 13 Do not present your members to sin as instruments for unrighteousness, but present yourselves to God as those who have been brought from death to life, and your members to God as instruments for righteousness. 14 For sin will have no dominion over you, since you are not under law but under grace.
15 What then? Are we to sin because we are not under law but under grace? By no means! 16 Do you not know that if you present yourselves to anyone as obedient slaves, you are slaves of the one whom you obey, either of sin, which leads to death, or of obedience, which leads to righteousness? 17 But thanks be to God, that you who were once slaves of sin have become obedient from the heart to the standard of teaching to which you were committed, 18 and, having been set free from sin, have become slaves of righteousness. 19 I am speaking in human terms, because of your natural limitations. For just as you once presented your members as slaves to impurity and to lawlessness leading to more lawlessness, so now present your members as slaves to righteousness leading to sanctification.
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